Mentals – Page 4 – Anna Spargo-Ryan

Mentals

Keeping an open mind

Part of the reason I'm not better yet is that I every time I walk into a doctor's office I think, "You couldn't possibly know as much about anxiety as I do." I fight them--and myself--every step of the way. Sometimes I make the choice not

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Look, blue sky!

I didn't make it to the concert and I feel amazing. It's confusing. Although I didn't make it, I actually got further than I have done in months, so I feel a million bucks. Though I missed the concert, what I got was the sense that I won't

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Empty spaces

When I was 15, I sang the Hallelujah Chorus. I practised for months, with the choir on Wednesdays and Thursdays and Saturdays and in private on all the other days. I sang until I had the notes just exactly right and did the final, enormous dress

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If I weren’t mental

If I weren't mental, I'd be spending today in a secret laneway bar with my hand inside a man's pocket and my other hand around a drink with a hipster name like 'Pimms No. 1 jar' (because good drinks come in mason jars, also daisies), and I would be listening

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Sorry, this is still going.

During "episodes", which is what I like to call periods in which I feel like a sack of hell because it means they will be over one day, I sometimes feel like I've forgotten how to do things. It causes me a lot of grief

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When I went to choir and it was fine

Some of the smallest things I accomplish take the most work. Like tonight, Georgia had an open choir rehearsal, which meant all the parents could come along and listen. I lost my head about it all day: this is the kind of thing a kid will remember

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The danger of expectation

Unfortunately, speaking about mental illness in an online space doesn't cure you of that mental illness. Sometimes people ask me to talk about my anxiety in a public forum. I have no anxiety about being the centre of attention or speaking in front of a large

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