Part of the reason I'm not better yet is that I every time I walk into a doctor's office I think, "You couldn't possibly know as much about anxiety as I do." I fight them--and myself--every step of the way. Sometimes I make the choice not
I didn't make it to the concert and I feel amazing. It's confusing. Although I didn't make it, I actually got further than I have done in months, so I feel a million bucks. Though I missed the concert, what I got was the sense that I won't
When I was 15, I sang the Hallelujah Chorus. I practised for months, with the choir on Wednesdays and Thursdays and Saturdays and in private on all the other days. I sang until I had the notes just exactly right and did the final, enormous dress
If I weren't mental, I'd be spending today in a secret laneway bar with my hand inside a man's pocket and my other hand around a drink with a hipster name like 'Pimms No. 1 jar' (because good drinks come in mason jars, also daisies), and I would be listening
During "episodes", which is what I like to call periods in which I feel like a sack of hell because it means they will be over one day, I sometimes feel like I've forgotten how to do things. It causes me a lot of grief
Earlier today I was reading this piece from Annie Stevens on Daily Life. I say 'reading', but I mean 'shouting at'. I think I probably understand her point. Mental illness has been popularised by shows like Girls and maybe United States of Tara and even Offspring. I've talked
I realise I've been quite heavy on the whole 'I am such a bad mother because I don't like going outside' this week, but I'm afraid it must continue for one more day. This is a piece I wrote for the ABC's very important disability portal,
Some of the smallest things I accomplish take the most work. Like tonight, Georgia had an open choir rehearsal, which meant all the parents could come along and listen. I lost my head about it all day: this is the kind of thing a kid will remember
When I started blogging again, I thought I would be quiet. You know, only blog when you feel like it. Only blog when you have something to say. I didn't expect to be this quiet, or have so little to say. I kept telling the people I
Unfortunately, speaking about mental illness in an online space doesn't cure you of that mental illness. Sometimes people ask me to talk about my anxiety in a public forum. I have no anxiety about being the centre of attention or speaking in front of a large
I haven't been watching much of the tennis. This is because I hide in my bedroom and play Triple Town all day. But Victoria Azarenka has been watching it. Playing it, too, and now she's going to be in the women's Australian Open singles final. Because