As a younger person, when I was being obsessive and weird about everything (something I definitely don’t do now), I would say to people, ‘I’m a Scorpio!’ Scorpios are known for being those things. Someone would hear you’d had sex two times and go, Typical Scorpio. I thought that was why I was so unstable and impulsive, why my blood boiled at the smallest rejection, why I couldn’t take no for an answer.
As it turns out, being a Scorpio is only a small part of it.
The bigger part is the borderline personality disorder.
I’m so excited to announce my blended memoir, inspired by my Horne Prize-winning essay “The Suicide Gene“.
In this book I hope to write in a way that captures everything about the experience, which includes the often-weird and retrospectively funny stuff. I don’t want to contribute singularly bleak mental health writing. I try to always include light and shade, to make my ideas accessible and readable. It’s crucial to me that people hear these messages, to feel comforted or angry or like part of a cool saddo troupe. The best way to have them heard is to write with nuance, humour and compassion (and, yes, awfulness and heartache).
This book will incorporate my own life, research, investigation, pictures, drawings, tear-stained pages and some kind of comfort robot, patent pending.